Dissappointed

When someone is ignoring you, what should you do?

Sometimes I feel so small because I couldnt do what people expected me to do and sometimes i feel like people feel disappointed at me but I dont even know why people feel that way to me. sigh

Dissapointed with myself because everbody fed up with me soon or later

I've been wondering, If one escape from a potentially become a tragic accident. Is that mean Allah still loves us?

bosan bosan tak de kerja

sedang belajar nak buat animation dengan character ini.

Tired Again

Untuk merasa kasih sayang daripada seseorang membuatkan diri ini terasa seperti berat dan tak layak untuk menerimanya.

Tapi, apabila tidak ada kasih sayang dari seseorang membuatkan jiwa ini terasa kosong.

Apo nOk DikaTo

Oh hanya dikau
Seorang saja
Gemala hati pujaanku sayang
Dan penglipur lara waktu duka

Oh hanya dikau
Seorang saja
Penawar rindu pujaan di kalbu
Yang ku rindu selalu tiap waktu

Bukan kerana permata atau pun berlian
Budi bahasa tutur yang sopan
Yang kuharapkan
Hanyalah dikau
Yang kunanti-nantikan
Untuk menyatakan kasih dan idaman
Rindu dan impian
Hmmm... hanya dikau

-P.Ramlee-

Many thhings had happen

Many things had happen, sometimes bad things comes to our life and destroy everything we have and sometimes, that bad things make us stronger and more disipline to overcome the obstacles and challenges that comes in our life.

And, good thing come in our life cheerish and brighten up everyone , me, you ,us, them , and... we all.
but more often that good things is not usually the best thing. It makes us feel arrogant, powerful, and feels like we can do anything we wanted to. The world didnt work that way.. im tired.

Medication

Its really shocking and interesting to know what medication (drugs) can do to you. Overdose = bad. in control = well, ok~ but not taking it when you suppose to? Sighh~

i slowly get on my medication back, the things i was feeling getting better. except for I feel my head getting heavier and my back hurts but i doubt it has anything to do with lumberpuncture or anything.

Somethings i feels like why do i still live on this world? I feel like I do nothing useful for others and feels like I only give them hardship with me. Some got very stress with me. I tried to improve myself, but its hard.


p/s: feels like the end is near. Very near, but can't tell when.

No medication for 1 week ( around 3-5 days)

1. Penat tiba2 tanpa sebab
2.Sakit kepala dari macam kena pierce dari luar ke dalam dan kadang2 dari dalam ke luar
3.kebas kat belakang kepala kat area belakang kiri.
4.emosi terganggu
5.kebingungan kadang2. Rasa macam tiba2 rasa kat tempat lain.
6.pening lalat <---lol
7.bernanah kat belakang badan. tapi tak besar. one spot. kat tempat lumberpuncter. exact spot.

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I feel much more lonely than evah bebeh since I cant do 2 things that I want and I like to do most in my live.

1. Hockey

2.*private, cant tell. :>

ahahaaa... funny things. i got gf in msn today at 11.48 27january2010. ROFL. (Jangan marah ye sayang) oh well, better than makes enemy right?

hmmmm. seems like missing something in my life. like a huge gap.

p/s: havent blog for long time now

1.Beside ur lips,where is the favourite spot to get kissed?
Hmm, Shoulder

2.How did u feel when u woke up this morning?
I want to sleep~

3.Who was the last person / people you took photo with ?
Ida

4.Would u consider urself spoiled ?
Maybe. I like the idea.

5.Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
I have few I think

6.Do you want someone to be dead?
Not really. I like the idea torture that person before and after life

7.What does your last text message say?
Ida

8.What are you thinking right now ?
Playing with myself. *smirk* .Nah, I want to find new hobby

9.Do you want someone to be with you right now ?
Hmm, not really. Not now at least

10.What was the time you went to bed last night ?
2 a.m. after watch movie

11.Where did you buy the shirt you are wearing now ?
At the Ice hockey tournament in Singapore back in 2007.

12.Who was the last person who text you ?
Ida

13.TEN Lucky Person to do this quiz.

no.1 Fadhil
no.2 Syera
no.3 Sarah
no.4 Paez
no.5 Tasha
no.6 Fiqa
no.7 Kimi
no.8 Ida
no.9 Mira
no.10 Smoke

14.Who is no.2 having a relationship with ?
Hohoo. Ask her?

15.Is no.3 a male or a female?
I am 100% sure she's a female. Hm...wait, let see.

16.If no.7 and no.1 get together , would it be a good?
Not that good, because no 1 will keep getting molested by no 7 ): I just saw the latest molesting scene this evening.

17.What is no.1 studying about?
Film & Animation. O.O .

18.When was the last time you chatted with them?
1. Long time ago~
2. back in 2009
3. Few days ago
4. Back in 2009
5. Few days ago
6. Last week
7. hmm. let see
8. last year
9. right here, right now baby~
10. He can't use technology.ROFLMAO

19.Is no.4 single?
Single but available?

20.Say something about no. 2.
Attractive somehow

21.What do you think about no.3 & no.5 being together?
Nah, they in WWE match right now. Wait, doesn't that mean being together? lol

22.Describe no.9
Chubby, Short hair, suck at skating (sorry), Love ice hockey, just finish SPM

23.What will you do if no.6 and no.7 fight ?
Hell yeah, We'll be looking at one Hockey defender and one doremon fighting.

24.Do you like 8?
No, I love her

25.How about 10?
he's.. he's.. Playful and cute. Dx. lol

May not play hockey for ever

Hmmm

Kondisi aku mungkin memdesak aku supaya tidak bermain mana mana sukan untuk selama-lamanya

Time to look for new hobby