Tired Again

Untuk merasa kasih sayang daripada seseorang membuatkan diri ini terasa seperti berat dan tak layak untuk menerimanya.

Tapi, apabila tidak ada kasih sayang dari seseorang membuatkan jiwa ini terasa kosong.

Apo nOk DikaTo

Oh hanya dikau
Seorang saja
Gemala hati pujaanku sayang
Dan penglipur lara waktu duka

Oh hanya dikau
Seorang saja
Penawar rindu pujaan di kalbu
Yang ku rindu selalu tiap waktu

Bukan kerana permata atau pun berlian
Budi bahasa tutur yang sopan
Yang kuharapkan
Hanyalah dikau
Yang kunanti-nantikan
Untuk menyatakan kasih dan idaman
Rindu dan impian
Hmmm... hanya dikau

-P.Ramlee-

Many thhings had happen

Many things had happen, sometimes bad things comes to our life and destroy everything we have and sometimes, that bad things make us stronger and more disipline to overcome the obstacles and challenges that comes in our life.

And, good thing come in our life cheerish and brighten up everyone , me, you ,us, them , and... we all.
but more often that good things is not usually the best thing. It makes us feel arrogant, powerful, and feels like we can do anything we wanted to. The world didnt work that way.. im tired.

Medication

Its really shocking and interesting to know what medication (drugs) can do to you. Overdose = bad. in control = well, ok~ but not taking it when you suppose to? Sighh~

i slowly get on my medication back, the things i was feeling getting better. except for I feel my head getting heavier and my back hurts but i doubt it has anything to do with lumberpuncture or anything.

Somethings i feels like why do i still live on this world? I feel like I do nothing useful for others and feels like I only give them hardship with me. Some got very stress with me. I tried to improve myself, but its hard.


p/s: feels like the end is near. Very near, but can't tell when.

No medication for 1 week ( around 3-5 days)

1. Penat tiba2 tanpa sebab
2.Sakit kepala dari macam kena pierce dari luar ke dalam dan kadang2 dari dalam ke luar
3.kebas kat belakang kepala kat area belakang kiri.
4.emosi terganggu
5.kebingungan kadang2. Rasa macam tiba2 rasa kat tempat lain.
6.pening lalat <---lol
7.bernanah kat belakang badan. tapi tak besar. one spot. kat tempat lumberpuncter. exact spot.

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I feel much more lonely than evah bebeh since I cant do 2 things that I want and I like to do most in my live.

1. Hockey

2.*private, cant tell. :>

ahahaaa... funny things. i got gf in msn today at 11.48 27january2010. ROFL. (Jangan marah ye sayang) oh well, better than makes enemy right?

hmmmm. seems like missing something in my life. like a huge gap.

p/s: havent blog for long time now