I'm So Fucking Tired and I Can't Sleep

Ohh Fuck!!

I'm so tired after play ice hockey.. and yet here I am

I can't sleep, I can't feel My Body anymore..

about ice hockey game.. Yeah, We fucked their asses.. last week, they said to us..(not really) we are better than this asses..

we won 7-3...

I don't perform today and I feel like dying and regretting because I can't perform well.. My knees, both of them are in pain now...

Will update later..

Hoki Ais Dan Hoki Padang

Dulu mase aku baru masuk hoki padang aku rase takut nak main sebab lepas aku injured kat kaki pastu terus masuk hospital, aku terus phobia...

Pade hemat korang la kan... hoki padang ke hoki ais yg lagi bahye?

sebab last week, ade seko mamat saleh ni dier shoot pastu puck terus melayang kat celah kangkang aku.. seb baik ade ball guard ngan stick.. puck tu kene stick aku.. sket jer lagi nak kene "bola" kesayangan aku.. O>O .. jangan gelak.. pastu lak .. aku kene shoot bertubi2 sbb main sbg defenderkan of course ko kene "mati" dulu baru la goalie yg "mati".. Shit.. .. ade satu time puck kene stick pastu kene chest pad patu kene kat betol2 kat bawah visor aku...

O>O.. then ini hoki padang, berkait dgn defender jugak.. ade sorang member,Ida. Jadi panda 2 kali.. XD.. XD.. 1st ade sorang minah gi angkat bola, pastu bola kene mate dier... O3O then, next tournament, Dier kene shoot ngan kakak ex-national team.well, at least accepted la sket.. ahaks.. still kene mate dier.. then kebanyakan aku kene shoot kat kaki.. DX

Mane lagi bahye? well, pada hemat aku.. Its sport, so.. mesti la ade risikonyakan? kalau tak der risiko, tak best la sport tu.. bukankah begitu?

Ice Hockey Match

We've put a good fight and the result's better than before although we lost 8-0 but compared to before 16-0?..

I give my all for 3 periods and man.. I feel like vomiting .. almost throw out.. it's be in my memory that someone shoot the puck and I'm in front of him .. not actually blocking but just do my job and try to intercept him but damn.. he shoot, the puck hit my hit, off to my chest pad and straight to my visor.. and I could feel the puck pass trough my mouth.. It's hurts but just for a while.. XD

Today's game.. we were short handed as we only have 7 people that's including me.. 3 defender and 4 forwards

the only person who come were Me, Vincent, Nik, Ahseng, Ajib, Khai, Edmunt..

We play hard and give our best today.. Man.. I almost score twice.. there's goes like.. 1st ajib take the puck inside and straight to the goalie but he fell and I just being my job try to support the offense and get the dead puck in front of the goalie and shoot it as soon as I get the puck but the main problem is I rushed and shoot it to the goalie's chest.. My accuracy!! where is my accuracy when I need it?

Then there 2nd is Khai get the puck and hold it and try to protect the puck at the blue line of defense and then I saw Ah seng if I not mistaken, went to the middle but the middle was packed with defender and I try to support Khai and go to the right side and ask for the puck.. and thanks Khai.. he gave it to me but I screw it a little.. because the defender almost get the puck but I hit the puck and it hit the defender's stick , flew over him and here comes the goalie.. charging straight to the puck and try to cover it but I manage to let it off and there's the open net and I screw it by falling down.. Damn

Although we lost 8-0 but it was satisfying as we mark our men and we do our individual work and lastly, we play as a team.. although Sarah said that our team weren't aggressive enough.. I do think that is true also.. I'm not regretting a little bit at all because I play my best and there..

Then, when I got back to hostel.. Paez in Emo mood.. Lol What The FUCK boy? who are you angry with? say it direct.. although I do feel like it's my fault for asking Sarah and Tasha to come along to sunway when they have crucial meeting.. and I make them to skip it.. Ngeh~~ XD
Sorry.. Pika!! what the hell happen?

Tournament

What can I say? we improve but still not enough.. what the hell? 1 step oh the field is like 3 steps on the turf.. fucking tired..

My knees.... uhhh... doesnt show any progress at all... maybe i need to see ronald...

training for ice hockey.. ahaha.. seng chee is worked up for project kazakstan.. many didnt come because of discipline problem and that goes to field hockey too..

Sat asked me to personally coach him for fitness.. ahaha... his fitness is way way way below average person... seriously...

~|Reaching The Limits|~

I'm Just At My Limit And Still Pushing It.. Sometimes Almost Break The Limit.. But Damn It Seriously Sucks...

My knee, I just wondering when will it heal.. It took a lot of my energy and im always.. always.. in tiring mood but I just dont want to show in front of anybody else..even if I show that I'm at my limits it'll just looks like I'm emotional but seriously I just reached my physical and mental limits..




This time I'm seriously at my limits and I'll try my best to stay away from it..



P/s:I'm sorry if I made anyone worry about me..

Ketidak puashati...

Auhhhhhh......

mase tengah update blog ni aku tgh sakit kepala....

kelmarin aku sakit lutut sampai tak leh jalan..... uhhhhhh.... sakit sampai ke dalam mata....

Cuti trimester tak leh nak wat pape... nak waat df bilek bersepah... kemas2 bersepah balik gara2 blek tido aku telah dijadikan ruang tamu oleh mak aku....

hari jumaat aku start sakit kaki bahagian lutut..... hari ni jugak family besarr aku dapat... aku rase benci.. =______________________________=


Dengan sakit lutut, pastu tak leh gi hoki... pastu kene kemas rumah sampai nak mati..... pastu.... aaaaaahhhhhh satwin mintak aku jadi coach utk hoki padang.... aku terima... tapi ramai yg tamau turun mungkin sebab tengok aku ni junior lagi lam hoki padang... passing pon tak betol pastu.. hit pon tak kuat... drag pon bola ternaik.... hish.... mase tengah cakap tu... aku terdengar cam dier cakap mintak jadi team manager... ape kerje team manager? aku tak nak!!!

!@#$% I lOVE HOCKEY!!!!

mase hari sabtu.. kuar la gi klcc.. aku ajak agak ramai la org.. tapi.. cume 2 org je yang datang... Ida ngan Rini jer....
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aku call tak jawab, aku msg tak balas...... memang tak puas hati... aku rase nak bawak korang gi ice rink, taruk korang kat tengah pastu skate laju2 lenyek korang.... hehehhehe ';..;'

Hokie Padang:~

Aku selalu tak puas hati ddengan prestasi hoki padang, sebab dorang main kadnag2 solo.. pastu mula la penat... ataupon baru lari 3 kali padang dah tercungap2... semangat dorang pon rendah...

satu hari training... aku tanye la Satwin.. "asal kiter tak wat fitness? sebab kite cepat penat bile kat tournament" pastu aku selit la pasal hoki ais....pastu tetibe je dier mintak aku jadi coach utk dorang... 1st memang la tak ramai nak ikot... ahahaha... aku tak kesah sebab aku ingat aku jadi untuk sehari jer...(FITNESS COACH ehh...)

Then lepas training, dier suh aku jadi permenant coach...O__________o siap nak mintak aku dobayar lagi... aku tak kesah sangat sebab aku wat secara sukarela... ahaha..kire bayaran tu bonus la....

lepas sekian lame... ade orang mintak aku wat basic drills sekali...hmmm.... aku dengar kate alvin yg nak buat.. so aku tak kesah sangat la.... aku secara tak sengaja teramek alih tempat alvin.. sori... xp

then, aku baru tau nape klau ade coach utk hoki padang... coach tu akan resign.... sebab kitorang tak berdisiplin.. termasuk aku sebab aku tak bgtau satwin walaupon aku ade no dier yg aku tak leh datang sbb sakit kaki...

PEMAIN MMU MAIN MACAM TAK DER SEMANGAT UNTUK SUKAN TU SENDIRI.... sebab kalau ade semangat untuk sukan tu.. dorang akan cari care utk improve dgn gi gim ker.. atau mas aku wat training fitness, dorang bersemangat... tapi, org yg mintak aku jadi coach FITNESS lak yg mintak aku kurangkan fitness...=_____________=

Balik lepas Satwin call aku, aku call dier balik nak confirm yang aku ni coach fitness ke coach skill.. dier cakap 2-2.... hmmmmm tak kesah sangat... TAPI!!! nak wat skill ape kalau tak fit? buat sikit dah penat... buat sikit dah penat... aishhh....






Ketidakpuas hati yg kedua....

(bace ngan suare mendatar)
aku tak leh nak wat df kat rumah... sbb terlalu banyak distraction
...1st mak aku yg memang tak kasi aku wat pape...2nd tv.., biler ade tv ade la ps... 3 computer..tau tau je la biler ade pc... 4........ vampire yg gigit aku ari tu... aku siap termimpi2 lagi do.... korang ingat aku tipu ade vampire?
aiseh....

Ketidak puas hati yang ketiga...

RINI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! aku nak rematch!!!!!!
membuatkan aku terpikir nape aku sangat tak gune lam hidup ni?
aaaaaaaaaaaa

Sakit, Sakit, Sakit...!! Lebam

Recently I have had too much injuries either inside of my body or outside of my body... Ohhh Fcuk It!!

1st I had this injuries due to blocking Gary's and bazli's shot.. it took many weeks as I could remember and again... Edy came to my room and hurt my other hand; my right hand... I would go ARRRRRGGGHHHH!!!! with just a touch.... Fcuk it!! MY WRIST!!~

2nd..my whole left leg feel like... ohh~ I'm actually carrying 20 tonne rock with me... then I figured out that it has to do with my nerve system on my back...

3rd.. my knee..1st is my right knee and also I figured out that it was my ligamen and my tendon..they kinda torned a bit... arrgg Fcuk...

then, after practice today,Field Hockey; I feel down cause my shoe betrayed me.=___=. Then. there goes my left knee along with it...uhhh....

Before, around 6 p.m; a really cute vampire came and hold me against the wall and bite my neck.....TWICE!!!! ARGGHHH!!!~ For the GOD sake.. My neck now has turned blue... Twice!!!~ I couldn't refuse as I was hypnotised at that time and she's...*NGAP~ Munyu munyu munyu~~ Muaaaakkkss... =A=... I told her too that my skin is kinda sensitive but I didn't expect that my skin is that sensitive... augghhh there's blood as well (vampire of course).

p/s:I'm Hers (the Vampire) but She's not mine.. =A=... aaaa.....Now I know how a vampire's victim felt..