Perhaps blog is a good stress reliever?

The title says it all.

Lately, a lot of things happened and I just couldn't keep up with it.

I try my best to suck it up but I guess if you suck it up too much, you gonna get overloaded huh?

Reality hurts. That's what I learn. What we expect to get, doesn't always go according to our way.

I made a deal with my mom the other day. If I can't get selected to play for Challenge Cup of Asia which is somewhere in April. I would quit hockey and for sure I couldn't make into National team. I have a lot of things to catch up.

A lot of things happened. Some I couldn't even tell it.

I'm sorry for my attitude has been very annoying to you lately. I guess all my trouble and problem shows on my face huh? I can't continue to pretend I'm all ok.

I'm sorry again if my words always hurts you and in the end, you get upset for every words I say.

I just wish I could solve all the problem and erase this sadness feeling.

New motherboard?

Last night I got my new motherboard. I working fantastic but then I soon realize my Hard disk drive screwed. arrrghh..!! My memories, My games, My Datas, My assignment!!... >:

Depress... Btw, 3years computer never ever making problems. Motherboards working fine, My Seagate HDD still ok. But... New pc? 1st motherboard I got, the jumper and chipset was damaged. I just don't know how and now both my HDD screwed?

>:

Also, I bought new cooler pad from cooler master. <: and I learned that my Sony Erikson phone pc got burned. Not its lcd. =.=

Surprise attack

Today when I finished my Simulation modelling class. I got text msg which at first I though I got it from my sister using my mom's number. It says "Umi kat wad sekarang, kena heart attack". My heart and my mind went in state of shock. I felt like I could faint at that moment. I quickly call the number and mom answered. I felt relieved. I love my mom so much eventhough I make her dissappoint too much. >: . To be honest, I can't live without my mom. >:

Too much things happened around me. I feel like something bad going on and I feel like I'm the one who make things go wrong.






-I miss a hug from someone dear-

Sadness

What can cure sadness?

Love?
Friends?
Party?
Alcohol?
Games?

What can cure sadness? >:

Haven't blogfor long time

Happy new year!~~

A lot of thing happened while I'm gone. I got new pc, I got selected on 1st cut for Ice hockey National Team. My Uncle hosptalize for about 1 week. Friends get together. Friends get on fight and hating each other but, that's all in the past now.

For my new year goal.

I want to get to 64kg with muscle.
I want to get more involve with my studies. 3Ds and photoshop.
I want to help my mom more and be more faithful to Allah.

I want to love my girlfriend bebe cayang gebu gebu kurus nak mampus more and gift her lots and lots of presents! <---- Not me write.

Improvement so far, I got myself 60kg but with fat. Haahaaaa.
I got myself into National team. I got my club a Field hockey (currently on construction)
and and.... errrrr.... >: No more I guess

Well, let's meet again <:

Dissappointed

When someone is ignoring you, what should you do?

Sometimes I feel so small because I couldnt do what people expected me to do and sometimes i feel like people feel disappointed at me but I dont even know why people feel that way to me. sigh

Dissapointed with myself because everbody fed up with me soon or later