Independent

Independent.

What comes to your mind when you hear the word independent?

For me, it is a scary word. Because, all my live I've been depending on someone, anyone I could turn myself to and seek comfort. So, the word independent scares me.

My mom, always take care of me from when I was little until now. She still does it. Until she got fed up and was comforted by my little sister. "Don't mind about him" She said. "Just let him do whatever he wants. Let him be independent"

My hockey career, I'm like a little brother in my team. Which is by the way the National team. They don't think I'm strong enough for someone to rely on me.

My best friend, I've been relying on her too much until she has gotten fed up with me and eventually, might leave me someday.




Independent.

What should I do to be independent?
I ask myself, think and think. I ask someone, everybody I could think of. How to be independent?

From my point of view,
to be independent is to stop relying on other too much and start to be responsible on yourself. Which is my mistake there.

To be responsible,
it has to start with the smallest thing you can do. That is, take care of your body physical and spiritual.

Physical.
Eat, Drink, Sleep, Exercise. It's all the basic need for your body and yet we always take it for granted

Spiritual.
Depends on your religion.
I have to make sure I pray 5 times a day. I must make sure I pray early. That is the basic need.


When these 2 has been taken care of. I can move on to the next level. Which is my attitude and control of myself.


Control of myself.
This is prolly the hardest thing to change in oneself. You need to constantly remind yourself to be better and better each day. Slowly but surely.